my sad story

2010-01-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

i've moved...!.
http://abcdesther.tumblr.com/

2010-01-01T20:15:00.002+08:00

ytd count down with enyouthrians... fun sio bodoh... our 2 suspects kena hair shampoo by us with starwberry short cakes... haha... actually they wan play true or dare.. in the end... crowd dimiss... do alot of stupid things ytd... haha.. water bomb al this... lol... damn fun... tmr got bbq.. dono wan go anot.. 5 agape de... haiz.. dono lah... now damn sian... dono wad to do sio... haiz... he ask me intro girls to him... dont he know i will jealous de mah??? haiz... really dono lah... mood swing!! so bye ppl

2009-12-29T21:49:00.001+08:00

ytd bball at sengkang... 9:3 me n tat army korkor win.. n army kor kor tinks that im only 16!!! wtf!!! compliment or insult sio? anw... im bored bored bored!!! nth to do now!! somebody!!! tell me wad to do???

2009-12-27T18:45:00.002+08:00

sad sad sad... tio reject by C.K.J.K aka CLAY... i try to an shi him i like him.. in the end.. he says im too young for him... looks like i really have to give up ler... haiz... T.T coz ur heart seems to b with stella ler... thou stella is younger thn me... u still like her more... this shos tat age doent matter to u... but donno y u lie to me age matters... stella is 16 im 18... n u said im too young.. thn wad bout stella? isint she younger?? isint tat worst?? i don wan ur thinking... but ill remember tat night when u use those mini light sticks to cheer me up... it will stay with me forever... i dont wanna snatch with my good friend over a guy or coz of a guy spoil our rls... so hope u n stella happy forever.... i give u my blessings...treat her well don make her cry... coz i woon forgive u... ill kip the light sticks with me... till i really found someone that can replace u... remember.. were still friends... ill still b there for u.. if u nid me to do taroting reading... ill do for u... don worry.. ill still treat u normally... so... good luck to u n stella...

2009-12-19T23:25:00.002+08:00

im sick ler!! gastric fever flu cough vomiting.. dying soon... anw love my new songs... song bo... shiok sia... anw thers this guy.. dan uber sweet... ytd mit me.. dono y i emo... thn he use this uber small light sticks to cheer me up... make me laugh... see him playing with it like a kid really make me laugh... thou u might think its nothing.. but to me its damn uber sweet.... now ive turn the dimming light sticks into a keychain... its time to dispose of the past... move on with life.. the neckalce the ring... BIG FUCK? that doesnt mean u can tie me down... his right... i shud forget u n move on... juz fuck off my life get it?? mr ex ex bf... now focusing in new goal in life... n i think ive fallen for him... but... my tarot card say its impossible... so haiz... n he thinks tat ns boy shud not have rls... i really dono... but... haiz.. wait lor...

2009-12-17T20:52:00.002+08:00

ytd.. go parkway cut hair... n style hair... thanks mr hair stylist... vincent...

2009-12-07T15:20:00.001+08:00

GAMES HEAVEN @ SAFRA...

2009-12-06T20:30:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BDAE MICH!!!

2009-12-01T21:07:00.002+08:00

sunday..mich came to overnight..monday 4am... go yishun meet zee n jo... n penguine...aft tat home to bathe... off to 505 for char bee hoon... thn to yishun to wait for zee to change.. aft tat of to school for exam...today.. movie.. mulan... nice nice nice... off to soul garden... free meal... coz the card cant past n the person nvr see... lmao... tired tired.. going plurk thn to sleep.. nitz ppl...

2009-11-23T14:38:00.002+08:00

EXAMS COMING!!! MUGGING LIKE SOME STUPID BITCH!!!

2009-11-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

SICK SICK SICK!! hoping to get well asap.. tmr working.. 12.30-10 worhz... shagg... anw.. this few days bzbzbzbzbzbzbzbzbzbz no time to blog... yup.. nuazz.. dumb ass kiwi... aka nigel... kip dsiaoing on friday... lame like hell... seriously... yvonne bball is better than u man!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahaha... sia mich working.. no one to sms... sian sia... wonder wad will i do tmr... shitzxxxxxx... tired man!!! going sleep... nitzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-11-13T23:27:00.002+08:00

today!!
bball w mich mark yvonne kiwi... breakfast at cafe 2... lesson.. dozing off... damn tired... dono y... went ikea.. work work work.. [loves working there]... fishfillet n chickrn wing at ikea... bishan... mos burger.. peach tea... homed... plurk.. blog.. going dota...
ytd!!
zee was early... surprizingly... aft school changi airport.. swensens... ikea... tamp 922.. mit fagg... fagg cried... thhreaten to suicide[=.=]lmao... cab.. homed... dinner...
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2009-11-10T19:39:00.002+08:00

dono wad im doing with life... im so sorry reggie... i know my attitude towards u is abit chui.. guess im juz so ready for a rls... so many guys ler.. n ive benn trying to move on n let but.. but i juz cant seems to do it.. i hope u will gif me more time.. im really sorry... fogive me ayte??

2009-11-09T18:46:00.002+08:00

REGGIE CHOO... ill promise... to walk all the way till the end with u.. i'll love you.. but give me time kays??

2009-10-30T20:17:00.001+08:00

today mich n zee came my hse.. b4 tat camworing with mich at zee's place the staircase... lmao..damn nuaz sia.. BORING!

2009-10-27T14:24:00.002+08:00

soul garden today... with mich... n ishaq... now etp... damn boring coz ive got nothing to do for the moment... nuazzz...

2009-10-24T09:19:00.001+08:00

alvin khoo.. u sucks.. ur so damn same as those bastards outside.. .. urgh.. plz fuck off..

2009-10-19T20:43:00.000+08:00

ALVIN KHOO.. MY MR SCANDAL!!! SNATCH HIM??? HELL U GO!!!

2009-10-14T13:15:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU... CHEAT MY FEELINGS... PLZ FUCK OFF

2009-10-11T16:49:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU DEAREST~

2009-10-07T19:31:00.001+08:00

BELOVED BF.. I LOVE YOU

2009-10-02T12:48:00.000+08:00

SHIT U MOOD SWING~~ PLEASE GO AWAY!!!

2009-10-01T18:30:00.002+08:00

SERIOUS MOOD SWING TODAY!! URGHH~~~

2009-09-30T21:32:00.001+08:00

zilian-ing.. wahaha...

2009-09-29T15:50:00.002+08:00

PATRICK FONG TIAN HUI... ur so damn funny...haha...
lets name a guy who entered into my life,after jo left me,URUHA... he brought me happiness... and colours into my life... and his a damn good guy... haha... thanks friend for breing there for me... ❤.❤.. haha

2009-09-28T20:13:00.003+08:00

dearest uruha.. haha

yoyo.. im backz... n MR FONG TIAN HUI PATRICK decided to teach me dota... woohooo... hahaha.. lol.. lame.. nth to blog.. sorry...

2009-09-27T20:12:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah ytd got to know a new fwen... LEE TIAN HONG.. haha.. got to know him from his "brother" FONG TIAN HUI... haha.. at first i tot they real bro.. till i found out.. eh diff surname leh.. thn tian hui tell me... oh no lah is " brothers" kena tricked.. LMAO.... but this two "brothers" damn uber friendly... great to haf fwens like them.. m u know wad... THEY LOVE DOTA N BBALL TOO... WOO HOOO~ haha.. uber hyper... and mr fong tian hui.. when will u improve my dota skill??? lol.. kip say okay okay.. neh tell me when... =.= anyway.. ive decided to move on from here.. oh yah tell u all a joke... there this mr hitsugi.. he worship mr sakito like god.. follow him everywhere like a gen pi chong... n u know the funniest thing is... he actually... is a dian deng pao... to mr sakito n his gf... lolololololol.. not referingto anyone.. but caught this caption in a blog.. find it kinda fany so i pot it in mine... mark n jo im not refering to u guys.. dont get offended... yup.. haha.. sorry for the capping of u two "BROTHERS" name... lol.. doing it out of fun.. hahahaha...

2009-09-26T17:06:00.002+08:00

long time nvr blog ler... ive been thinking.. ppl kip calling us pathetic couple... now i think u made the right choice leaving me.. coz ur no longer be pathetic with me anymore... HOORAY!!! haiz you will never know how much i wanted u in my heart. u once said u tot of going back to ur girl's home ex.. now u can ler... aint u happy.??? im happy for you... but u thin i m really happy??? haiz... i dont know... but ill give u all my blessings... girl treasure him.. don regret like me... PHOBIA2 anyone????

2009-09-14T14:59:00.001+08:00

if its fagg.. he will blif wad had happen.. now i begin to think... if in the first place i choose fagg instead of u??? will i be like now??? have i regreted my choice??? haiz.. i dono...

2009-09-12T16:51:00.000+08:00

haiz.. this few nitx=z kip dreaming bout him.. quite sad sio... haiz

2009-09-06T14:02:00.001+08:00

do u know when tat thing happen.. how hurt m i?? u know how much i nidded a hug from u??? how disappointed im when u turn down my hug??? haiz.. u juz woon understand how i feel...

2009-09-02T09:49:00.002+08:00

somethings happen... n coz of this jo left me.. he thinks tat im lying to him.. coz taat day i act till like nth happen.. n he really thinks tat nth happen n thinks tat im lying to him... im lost now.. someone tell me what to do??? what can i do to prove to him im not lying??? i really cant afford to loose him.. coz i really lovr him loads n loads n loads... plz tell me wad to do...

2009-08-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

dear diary this is bout my feelings for jo... i truely love him.. but... ppl all look down on him bcoz of me... i don wan to lian lie him anymore... im doing all this for his own good... i know my conscience is clear as fag is my bestest friend... n i share all my troubles with him.. only he understands me the best.. n he knows what im thinking tats y i go mit him.. im not two timing jo... im juz miting up a friend to tok n relieve my stress... i hope he will understand and hear my explanaion.but... he doon seems to understand that all im doing is for his own good...most importanly... i rather he b in pain thn agony.. haiz...

2009-08-17T11:17:00.002+08:00

i really love u alot.. but wad u have done has hurt me damn deep.. damn deep... damn damn deep.. nothing can heal the wound... i love u so much yet in the end this is wad u say... u tot of going back to her.... do u know its like a knief piercing into my heart?? no u dont.. n u woon know how i feel... coz u never think b4 u say.. u nve put urself into my shoes b4 u say this kina hurting things to me... now u blame me for spreading u two timed me... no point explaining to ppl coz once u say u tot of going back to her.. there is already an intention there.. u get it?? u woon know the feeling in me now... i feel like crying... but i juz woon come... u know how uncomfortable is it??? no u dont.. coz u nvr felt this way at all... ur not me... u woon know it der... i put all my zhen xin hua to u on my blog... hack care wad my mom say bout u n continue to be with u... in the end u tell me u tot of going back to ur ex... this is how u repay my kindness??? hahaha... thanks man.. thanks alot jo... u successfully hurt me... congratz...

2009-08-16T11:43:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: plain water
2. Last phone call: jojo
3. Last text message: wake up call me
4. Last song you listened to: Qing Ai De
5. Last time you cried: Friday

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: huh?? friend or wad?
7. Been cheated on: Yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yes
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: Yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: No

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. black
13. red
14. pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: yes
17. Laughed until you cried: no
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: yes
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 3/4 and above
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2??
24. Do you have any pets: yes
25. Do you want to change your name: yes
26. What did you do for your last birthday: lonely.. i m so lonely.. i have no body.. to call my own
[lonely by akon can describe it]
27. What time did you wake up today: 9am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: to see jojo
30. Last time you saw your Mother: about 2 hrs ago?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my fucking attitude
32. What are you listening to right now: Qing Ai De
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing
35. Most visited webpage: wholivesnearyoou
36. Whats your real name: E.T.Y.T
37. Nicknames: uki
38. Relationship Status: Attached
39. Zodiac sign: aquaris
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: JSPS
42. Middle School?: PHS
43. High school/college?: Ite College East[currently]
44. Hair colour: highlghted
45. Long or short: Meddium
46. Height: 164.5
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes
48: What do you like about yourself?: I hate myself
49. Piercings: 3
50. Tattoos: No
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: removal of wisdom tooth
53. First piercing: 5years old
54. First best friend: pri 1
55. First sport you joined: BBall
56. First vacation: Genting
58. First pair of trainers: when i learn to walk??
59. Eating: cannot remember
60. Drinking: huh?? dont know...
61. I'm about to: get bored with this
62. Listening to: Qing Ai de
63. Waiting on: to see my dearest

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: 2?
65. Get Married?: hmm dono
66. Career?: events management? interior design?

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: dono
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs from dearest
69. Shorter or taller: Taller la
70. Older or Younger: Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: hmm.. never think
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: see my mood

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes
79. Sex on first date: hohoho.. of coz is no lah
80. Broken someone's heart: yes
82. Been arrested: arrested for??/
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself:NO
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: No
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: No
91. Kiss on the first date got meh??
92. Angels: Yes
93. Demons: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: yes.. long time ago
95. Did you sing today?: Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Yes
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: no thanks
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: nope
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes. i dont wanna get hurt again
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: obviously yes

2009-08-15T21:47:00.002+08:00

alot of things happen recently.. its been long sinc i last blog... sad n happy...
1. i ve got rid of kelson
2. i cancelled the line of kelson
3. i got my dearest boi jojo
4. quarrel with jojo... nearly break
5. back with jojo again
6. quarrel again! not really quarrel but toking out of our feelings about how we think of our rls..
7. heard wad jojo said.. touches my hert damn deep..
8. jojo send me a mg say wan be normal friends.
9. crycry
10. received another msg.. jojo ask me wan b tgt anot.. n i said yes.
11. zao camp due to mc kena caught.
today..
jojo still not home.. miss him damn much.. now i start to realise.. i cant live wifout jojo ler..
he did a silly thing which touches my heart even more... he tried his ultimate best juz to search for my pan wei bo signature... in the end he went at the wrong date.. to make me happy he went to erch the whole of jurong juz to get a cd to replace it thn search for the one with signature.. touching rite??? dearest.. my heart is addicted to u now... promise u woon leave me kays??? i love u... n im mentally insane over you... i will learn to appreciate you... n love u with all my heart... smile baby im here for you... hehe...

2009-07-24T21:13:00.002+08:00

hmm.. had a small quarrel with baby... coz of baby's hp bill nid clear it asap.. or else lawyers letter kip coming in again... haiz... baby... ill think of away asap.. don worry.. cant bear to see u go court or anything... was a bit upset over the small quarrel... lucky got babys sayang.. feel much better... baby.. i hope we woon quarrel over small things again okay... 4 more days to our lovely aniversary... all i wanna say is i love you... n cant bear to loose u.. lets gold our hands n walk till eternity... shall we??? mwarks baby.. u take kaires kays??? i love you...

2009-07-20T20:48:00.002+08:00

didnt post recently... sorry readers... anyway.. baby lost his phone 3 days ago... at LAN SHOP!! pissed... asked him to make police report.. he hiam lei chey... but neh mind.. cos 1 of his phone. the one i got for him, is spoilt.. so the pax who stole it suay lah.... anyway i saw a damn thing which make me damn pissed off... its post by ~MsS BuSY VEc~ on wlny... spoiling my upline pengboon's market... n this is what it says... Pengboon company is EY.. is a mlm company whcih they call them SLM.. dun trust all this..eh plz ~MsS BuSY VEc~ u think ur successful? u think u millionaire? u think u earn more than pengboon? i will listen to u lah if yes. no wonder i u go around spamming ppl... coz u r jealous of peng boon.. plz lah dont come n spoil marktet if u urself cannot make it.. tat doesnt mean ppl cannot make it... n one more thing if u got the gut to write? no gut to put ur real name??? go home suck ur mummies neh neh lah... plz.. dont b childish!!!
anyway baby.. u bill is coming soon... u shud know wad to do horx... haha... me n baby rls getting closer n closer... hip hip hooray!!! baby.. i owe u a meal rite?? i promised to cook for u der.. rmb??? haha.. baby... r so sweet... n i love u more each day... baby lets hold our hands till eternity... love you.. mwarks...

2009-07-13T19:41:00.003+08:00

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i love you

2009-06-01T20:24:00.002+08:00

hohoho.. im going for the schools japanese language course... n i uber hyper now!!!! haha...
leg has recovered but still limping abit... yikes... it hurts okay??? ignatus has went to bali.. n its juz afew hours only.. n im begining to miss him like hell... but neh mind.. its gona be 5 days when his away.. n exams are round the corner.. this means... i can concentrate abit more... not saying got him cant but smt will buzy tok to him thn cant concentrate.. everyone.. MUGG HARD!!! gtg study aikes??? take kaire ppl n bon voyage ignatius~

2009-05-23T23:50:00.009+08:00

today went sentosa!!!

wen jun

tammy

jenesta

michelle

mark

evelyn

at first we wnt habourfront centre coz... michelle n jenesta were late... n took some pics of wenjun at macdonalds...

then we went to sky pool...

HEAD TO SENTOSA~~~~~~~~~

poor wen jun kena burried.. hahaha...

2009-05-16T20:23:00.001+08:00

alvin is not my bf.. were ubber good friends who call each other dear.. so don get the wrong idea kays peers...

2009-05-15T21:23:00.003+08:00

its been loooooooooooooooooooooooooooong since i last posted... and dearest alvin hasnt been on9 too.. think he die ler... hahaha... miss u lur.. dumb ass alvin... haha.. ur really dumb... remember our booobooo n arhmarhm??? haha... tats our liller secret rite dear??? anyway i miss u better be on9 soon kays??? muarkz

2009-04-27T20:12:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. tmr miting ziwei[richard] juz to pei him.. wad the fuck.. but nvmm.. hope he don treat me trasnparent...

2009-04-01T20:07:00.001+08:00

sorry people havent been blogging.. apologise... haha.. dearest irwan is going to idonesia for 2 weeks.. how m i going to survive??? hmm.. good question... haha.. i dont know...

2009-03-26T10:50:00.003+08:00

lyrics for blog song:

nae meorineun neomuna nabbaseo
neo hanabagge nan moreugo
dareun sarameul bogoissneun neon
ireon naemaeumdo moreugessji

neoyi harue naran eobsgessji
ddo cueogjoca eobsgessjiman
neoman baraman bogoissneun nan
jaggu nunmuli heureugoisseo

neoyi dwismoseubeul boneungeosdo nan haengbogiya
ajig nayi maeumeul molrado
ggeutnae seucideusi gado

niga neomu bogosipeun nalen
neomu gyeondigi himdeun naleneun
neoreul saranghanda ibgae maemdola~
honja dasi ddo crying for you
honja dasi ddo missing for you
baby! i love you! i'm waiting for you

neoyi harue nan eobsgessji
ddo gieogjoca eobsgessjiman
neoman baraman bogoissneun na
honja cueogeul mandeulgo isseo

naegen sarangiran areumdaun sangceogata
neoyi yebbeun misoreul boado
hamgge nan usjido moshae

niga neomu saenggagnaneun nalen
gaseum sirigo seulpeun naleneun
niga bogosipda ibgae maemdola~
honja dasi ddo crying for you
honja dasi ddo missing for you
baby! i love you! i'm waiting for you

bye bye never say good bye
ireohge jabji moshajiman
i need you amu maldo moshae i want you baraedo dasi baraedo

niga neomu bogosipeun nalen
neomu gyeondigi himdeun naleneun
neoreul saranghanda ibgae maemdola~
honja dasi ddo crying for you

niga neomu saenggagnaneun nalen
gaseum sirigo seulpeun naleneun
niga bogosipda ibgae maemdola~
honja dasi ddo crying for you
honja dasi ddo missing for you
baby! i love you! i'm waiting for you

english:
Because I am too stupid
I have no one besides you
You, who is looking at someone else
Dont you know how I felt?

There isnt me in your days
And not even having any remembrance
Me, who looking at you whom I am yearning for
Always shed tears

(B )
It is my happiness even to be looking at your back
You still dont know how I felt
In the end, you go past me

(chorus)
In the days where I miss you very much
In the days where I suffered the pains
I love you whirls near my mouth
Crying for you alone yet again
Missing for you alone yet again
Baby! I love you! Im waiting for you!

(A')
There isnt me in your days
And not even having any memories
I am looking at you whom I am yearning for
Making the memories on my own

(B )
Love is like a beautiful wound to me
Even when I see your beautiful smile
I am unable to laugh with you

(Chorus)
In the days where I think of you a lot
In the days where my heart is cold and sad
I miss you whirls near my mouth
Crying for you alone yet again
Missing for you alone yet again
Baby! I love you! Im waiting for you!

(Bridge)
Bye bye never say good bye
Though I am unable to hold you like this
I need you, I am unable to say anything, I want you, I wish for and wish for it again

(Chours Ending)
In the days where I miss you a lot
In the days where it is very cold and sad
I love you whirls near my mouth
Crying for you alone yet again
In the days where I think of you a lot
In the days where it is very cold and sad
I love you whirls near my mouth
Crying for you alone yet again
Missing for you alone yet again
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

2009-03-18T13:54:00.000+08:00

ytd watch coming soon... must watch okay people!!!

2009-03-12T20:41:00.002+08:00

IGNATIUS BABY HAPPY 10 MTHS ANIVERSARY.. I JUST CANT FORGET YOU EVEN IF IM LOVE WITH ALVIN..

2009-03-11T19:19:00.000+08:00

TALKING TO ALVIN = 好幸福

2009-03-10T21:06:00.002+08:00

this few days nvr really tok to alvin... only today.. n he happen to found out.. i love him... lol.. but nvm.. i lied to him say only make him happy nia... hais.. bodoh me.. haiyo.. thn now.. he tot i don love him!!! how how how??? haiz..

2009-03-08T00:04:00.003+08:00

tok to sweet sweet alvin again!!!!
heres part of it..

^^ says:
Got miss me?
❤esther says:
GOT
lol
^^ says:
Hee
❤esther says:
haha
bored
sian.. wad u doing??

You have just sent a nudge.

^^ says:
I waiting for friend to play game
Haha
❤esther says:
lol.. so long thn reply
^^ says:
Haha
Nv notice ma
❤esther says:
lets continue with our game
lol
u start first
^^ says:
Haha
U sure
❤esther says:
don dsiao me hor!
yah sure
^^ says:
I will ask super power questions
Haha

❤esther says:
okok
^^ says:
U first
❤esther says:
u first

SECRET

❤esther says:
lol
kay lah
stop lah
^^ says:
Haha
❤esther says:
tml continue
^^ says:
See
Haha
❤esther says:
i wan sleep ler
^^ says:
Hao de
Good night
❤esther says:
if not tml cant tok to u
haha
nightz..
n..
^^ says:
Haha
Ok
Wet dreams to u
❤esther says:
mwarkz
^^ says:
Hahaha
Muackz
I wan a real one

❤esther says:
real wad?
??
hello??

You have just sent a nudge.

^^ says:
Haha
Real kiss
❤esther says:
ok..
mmmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkzzzzzzzzzzzzz
long enuf?
whey whey??
lol.. i really got to go
ok??
mwarks... >.<

his the sweetest guy ever... n i do love him like hell.. but he doesnt know.. n i hope he will never know... it will spoil this friendship of ours... so.. lets stay this way...

2009-03-05T19:14:00.002+08:00

sweetest guy ever.. alvin... this is part of our sweet conversation....

^^ says:
How come this mornih nv see u online?
❤esther says:
sleeping
^^ says:
Ic
^^ says:
Happy hor
^^ says:
whole day nothing to do
❤esther says:
sian lor
❤esther says:
haha
❤esther says:
my hair wet ler
❤esther says:
hlp me blow
❤esther says:
>.<
^^ says:
Blow blow
^^ says:
Boooo
❤esther says:
haha
❤esther says:
thankz
^^ says:
Hee
❤esther says:
haha
^^ says:
Feel cold or not?
❤esther says:
abit
^^ says:
Wan me give u a hug as well?
^^ says:
Hahaha
❤esther says:
yeah!!!
❤esther says:
hug hug
^^ says:
Lol
❤esther says:
lo
❤esther says:
lol
^^ says:
Hug hug
❤esther says:
hug hug
❤esther says:
lol
^^ says:
Hee
❤esther says:
haha
^^ says:
Warm already?
❤esther says:
yup
^^ says:
Okay
❤esther says:
haha
^^ says:
Let go
❤esther says:
lol
❤esther says:
let go lor
^^ says:
Haha
^^ says:
I hug somemore u become hot how
^^ says:
Haha
❤esther says:
lol
❤esther says:
where u now? office?
^^ says:
Ard there
^^ says:
Haha
❤esther says:
lol..
❤esther says:
wad u doing ard there?
❤esther says:
finish work ler arh?
^^ says:
No la
❤esther says:
thn? no nid work arh?
^^ says:
My office in kiatib camp
^^ says:
So i in the camp
^^ says:
But not inside my room
❤esther says:
ok
❤esther says:
lol
❤esther says:
ok
❤esther says:
so sweet sia u
❤esther says:
got u as bf one sure very fortunate
^^ says:
Y leh?
❤esther says:
lol.. donno
❤esther says:
juz jealous of ur gf
❤esther says:
haha
❤esther says:
lol
❤esther says:
ops
❤esther says:
wad i toking sio
❤esther says:
i drunk ler
❤esther says:
lol
^^ says:
Haha
^^ says:
Lol
^^ says:
U got drink meh?
❤esther says:
nvr
❤esther says:
haha
❤esther says:
i think i drunk
❤esther says:
kip toking rubbish
❤esther says:
lol
^^ says:
Haha
^^ says:
Its alright
❤esther says:
lol
^^ says:
Rubbish is better den nothing
❤esther says:
drunk ppl usually speaks the truth
❤esther says:
u can dsiao me ler
^^ says:
Haha
❤esther says:
come lets play truth or dare
❤esther says:
lol
^^ says:
U really drunk ah?
❤esther says:
abit lah
^^ says:
Ok
^^ says:
How to play?
❤esther says:
u chose truth or dare
❤esther says:
thn i think of wad to do
❤esther says:
thn my turn choose
❤esther says:
u think of wad to do
❤esther says:
lol
❤esther says:
lame
^^ says:
But i ask u do i also dunno u got do or not
^^ says:
Haha
❤esther says:
haha
^^ says:
U drunk
❤esther says:
haha
^^ says:
Jux tell me about yourself
❤esther says:
lets play
^^ says:
Ok
❤esther says:
i chose first
^^ says:
I think we jux play truth can le
^^ says:
Haha
❤esther says:
ok
❤esther says:
u ask first

secret question and answer between us...

^^ says:
Can we cont later? My phone goin low batt
^^ says:
Haha
❤esther says:
AGAIN?
❤esther says:
ok lor
❤esther says:
i going sleep ler
❤esther says:
cont tmr lor
^^ says:
Haha
^^ says:
Anything
❤esther says:
ok
❤esther says:
bye
❤esther says:
miss ya >.<
^^ says:
Ok
^^ says:
Good night
^^ says:
Muackz
❤esther says:
nightZ
❤esther says:
mwarkz
❤esther says:
lol
^^ says:
Bye
❤esther says:
bye

alvin is sweet okay...

2009-02-23T16:17:00.002+08:00

chia ignatius paul 愛してるよ-Saya cintamu-i love you

Nagai Aida - Kiroro

2009-02-20T10:35:00.004+08:00

When You Tell Me That You Love Me - Westlife (feat Diana Ross)

baby listen to the lyrics closely.. it shows how much i really do love you boy... heres the lyrics baby....

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know whats beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
Ill make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
Im shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everythings easy now
I have you here

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

And baby
Everytime you touch meI become a hero
Ill make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
Im shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

2009-02-19T19:29:00.000+08:00

baby heres a song for you...
enjoy...

Aslyn - Thats When I Love You - Aslyn

Aslyn - That's When I Love You

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love youJust that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly
And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know
And when you forget that we had a date
That look that u give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what
No matter what...

2009-02-18T11:15:00.003+08:00

down with a f*ing flu n fever! back to here... im back ppl!any way.. baby i miss u loads n loads n loads...when will we get to mit again... i do miss u alot baby... 9 months n 6 days... n i still love you as much... baby ur omeone who is special that i can ony gif to tat is my love, care n my heart.. n everything i haf i wan to use all this word just to let you know tat i love you coz ur special to me than other boi that i the only boi i will fall deep in love with n only will let me give up everything.. i do love you boi.. n heres a song for u my love...

Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

2009-02-17T12:36:00.003+08:00

a super cute song for you guys out there...

Sugar Sugar - The Archies

and baby im here to delicate a song to you again where part of the chorous says...
chinese:
如果你爱过我
你不会就这样走
就这样丢下我
和那些天真承诺
english:
if u once love me
you won leave me here n leave
juz like that leave me
n those naive promise

牙关 - 五月天

those our love story juz end like tat??
i dont think so... babby we still have a long way ahead.... lets go thru all this think n thin together.. nomatter were happy or sad... be there for each other n never leave each other again okay???? i love you baby... i once two timed u.. but that doesnt gif u a reason to visit the duty girls rite baby??? im sorry for two timing you... but baby... u two timed me too.. u were wif angewl but u told me ur single... both of us are at fault...n im willing to learn from mistake.. r u baby??? i love you oways baby... rmb.. im oways here for you....

2009-02-16T18:58:00.003+08:00

baby.. im at his F*ing place for no reason n i dont know wad the F*ing hell im doing here... im listening to all the west life songs tat u sang for me n u know wad?? I F*ING MISS YOU LUR!!! anyway baby.. tkz for trying to clear up my mess... i do appreciate you alot.. but yet.. ur wif angel now.. i ll wait for ur return baby.. coz i really do love you loads n loads n loads... now im delicating a song for you baby... the song once u sang for me....

My Love - Westlife

tkz for all the memories baby... rmb our first kiss? rmb our first movie? rmb our first hug??? i do rmb... and baby... rmb our first night chat? rmb the night when u tok to me n u slp n snore??? baby thanks for everything.. i appreciate thm... n i do love u still so... do u rmb the nights u sang for me??? all this are precious memories to me... n i won forget all this precious memories.. im waiting for u baby... bi it 2 or 3 or 5 or even forever... ill wait for ur return... i promise you.. ill be a good girl fwen... treat u beta thn angel.. love you more thn her.. i rmb those days u used to complain to me about her... that makes me wanna prove to u more that i love u more thn her.. but ur heart is still with her... i rmb our promise... taking the master in interior design with u.. but looks like i hafta break this promise... coz i cant get into interior design baby... im sorry... a thousand sorries to u baby... come back to me will u? i don wanna spent our 10 mth ani alone... or even the future ones alone... so baby plz... i know ive done alot of evil things juz to get u but baby... i m doing all this bcoz i love you... im gona delicate a song for u everyday.. coz fate brought us together... n im not gona let all this end baby... so plz gib me a chance to prove to u again that i really love u loads n loads n loads... last but not least baby happy belated valentine's day... i love u baby... mwarkz...

2009-02-15T12:26:00.001+08:00

im leaving people... goodbye nicole mummy.. im sorry.... ill be back real soon

2009-02-15T03:00:00.004+08:00

it was valentines day...
rch there at 8...
performance by helven...
here's part of the performance

The New Beginning - Helven

nice rites????

and btw audrey got

yup 99 roses.... envy??? i bet you ppl are... haha... and baby when will be our turn to celebrate this day together??? haiz... HELVEN is so cool man.. especially BUGGY... his hair is like.. WOW!!! and kazuya was being asked to sing.. ONLY ONE BY YELLOW CARD...

after event end.. we headed down to east coast to slack... and.. really.. damn tired man..rch home at 2.30am... was damn tired.. anyway thanks bernard for driving us around...

i suck in this pic...

2009-02-12T11:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTHS ANIVERSARY HUBBY~

2009-02-11T22:26:00.002+08:00

today..
mit gary... he bring me go serangoon shopping centre.. there.. we had lotsa fun... he went off early as he got to go work so.. he paid for my cab fair to yishun... so sweet of him... went to shaun place... thn slack awhile.. he gave me a *balloon*[if u know wads tat] wad the f* lah.. thn we went for lunch tgt.. had wanton mee... hn went fetch nicole mummy from sku... yup.. shaun gib her jiao bin.. lol.. tats wad she say.. thn rch ler.. she had her maggie mee... thn we wnt north point to collect her superman belt... lol.. thn we took a cab back as it was raining... after awhile edwin daddy reach.. we went to yishun primary to fetch daddy... thn nikita n edwin used umbrella to fight... lol.. nikita umbrella spoilt... =.=... any way daddy teach me a way on how to replay the LMAO msg... wan get frm me.. im sure u will ROFL... lol.. anyway afew days back.. i made mummy cry... anyway mummy ive got a good news.. im not leaving ler.. i don wan the contract ler.. im staying for u.. wad daddy say is correct.. if i rilli wanna sing here oso can.. don nid go other places... thanks daddy for knocking coconut sense into me.. n JIAJUN UR LUCKY DADDY lET YOU OFF... n I LISTENED TO DADDY IF NOT... U SHALL SEE HOW BAD MY TEMPER IS... DON DARE ME OKAY... aloysius leaving for brunie tml... woohoo... no more flirter in my life... and anyway... tml is me n hubby's 9 mth aniversary.. i do miss him alot... im gona go to the lost n found counter to find him... baby ive done my confession.. haf you???

2009-02-10T20:36:00.002+08:00

today.. went vivo.. mit UDI dear~ his damn cute larh... tickle him he turn on... hahaha... now i know ur weakest spot.. ur dead on saturday dear~ hekhek... ur dead.. anyway i waited for him at vivo for like.... 1hr30mins.. but nvm.. heyhey... his damn farny okay??? n u know wad dear? i love u more n more each day!!!

2009-02-09T19:21:00.003+08:00

ytd..
went church.. kor bring friend.. wei lun...after church went find nicole mummy, nikita,ryan n john...they r so damn cute kays...waited for edwin daddy like so damn long lur...aft daddy rch.. went for lunch... didnt eat no appitte...after tat went mummy hse... daddy look so damn tired lah coz his sick..thn tat ahpek damn f*ing guai lan lah.. thn daddy scold him scold till damn freaking fierce... n it scare me sio... aft aloy turn he refuse to ans so we call his mama.. daddy tok to his mama say wad: ask ur erzi wan he sent to esther thn.. thn cup the phone... aft daddy went off early coz he got to work.... after awhile i went off to mit shaun... slack slacl slack... homed..
msned... called daddy and aloy.. settled things once n for all.. but daddy say i oso got wrong coz i shudnt huan tio his mother.. so i hafta po pai seh.. ok lor.. listen to daddy... tok to dean thn sleep...
today..
woke up.. send dean sms. chated on phone for omost an hour... thn bathe.. out to collect phone... trained to parsa ris.. met dean.. n off to macpherson ite... saw kor.. met tammy slack awhile thn off to amk... went to sing post... thn off to home.. cooked ai xin bee hoon for tammy.. drank coke, ju hua cha, dong gua cha n green tea... lol.. was damn tirsty can!! but packet one lah.. oni coke is can one... lol... thn eat with tammy... thn went buy cat food for my cat n sent tammy off to the bus stop.. homed again n bathe... now sitting here slacking AGAIN... waiting for dean to reply my msg.. n i juz rmb i owe him smt... he knows i know.. ok ler... haha...

2009-02-08T18:36:00.001+08:00

ignatius baby.. 4 more days to our 9th mth aniversary... y arent u back by my side?? haiz... i miss n love u loads...

2009-02-07T12:57:00.001+08:00

END OF STORY... BUT THANKZ FOR THE HAPPY MEMORIES!!

2009-02-06T18:05:00.003+08:00

MR BOYFRIEND IS SHO HANDSOME OKAY!!!

2009-02-06T09:35:00.000+08:00

mitting my boyfriend later..
HAPPY!!!

2009-02-05T19:52:00.001+08:00

whyeee whyeee... tml miting mr boyfriend!! yeah yeah.. afternoon go class outing!!! hope it will be a fun one...

2009-02-05T11:16:00.002+08:00

HELLO MR BOYFRIEND

2009-02-04T21:55:00.002+08:00

recently alot of prank callers called me.. here a the followings scene
A calls.. told me his horny n start moaning on the phone.
B msn me.. ask me to befriend him for SEX!!!
C kip asking.. R U HORNY..
eh dhey u all cor again i sure call police...
okay!!
THIS IS MY FINAL WARNING!!!

2009-02-02T16:32:00.003+08:00

ytd 1st feb 1991
yohoo.. im 18!!!! finally man!!! oh ya.. woke up at 8am.. mit kor at 9.. tammy came at 10.15 go church.. end at 10.30.. is like LMAO... tammy lah so late.. after church w.k join us... headed bugis to alice... hugged primo... till hmm.. 2... w.w daddy joined us... w.k went off... kor n w.w daddy headed to lunch... chicken chop rice.. LMAO.. n the whole day was peace n quite.. till audrey n kazuya join... everyone started to laf tru the whole day.. after lunch.. bus-ed to vivo... thn came quitness AGAIN!!! thn rch vivo.. head-ed to national geography.. suggested by kazuya.. LMAO.. he kip joking around... is like laf till u stomach pain lah.. thn kor kip on lafing osho.. is like FINALLY we start to bond... lol lor... thn after tat went page on to get tammy book... in the end... OUT OF STOCK!!! wad the f*.. after tat went to ben n jerry n hagen daz... my wallet po dong lor!!! but nvm.. im the bade girl.. so no choice... after tat they went to haf their dinner at sakae sushi for kazuya sukiyaki n tam and audrey chawamushi... thn we start telling lame jokes... lol lah... thn kazuya kip dsiao tammy n neez.. laf till stomach pain.. n worst laf till stomach full... after their dinner.. kor, me n w.w daddy went home first.. train-ed wif kor till hougang.. take bus 72 home.. bathe n SUAI.. i drop my phone on the floor thn kena water... whole phone hey wire.. kip shutting on n turning on by itself.. after awhile kip sending msges by itself.. LMAO... thn headace,, mum cook mee sua for me... lol... thn slp at 10 coz was super tired...

today....
went to service me n bro's phone.. cb* nid pay 80bucks... but neamind coz thet are changing the whole system in the phone to a brand new set... so its worth it lah... haha... now.. im waiting for douchi reply.. n he starts sku TODAY! so damn good unlike sg start on january... thn now bo dai ji zou.. sit here blog... well well well.. i nid to update my song.. go to go... bye...

2009-01-24T18:55:00.001+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Death
Disappointment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-01-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

Miren wa nai to fumikonda
Onna hitori toukyou eki mou tsukareta no...
Ikiteru imi ga nai kara

Zutto shiawase na mainichi tsuzuku to omotte ita
Atashi no karada no naka ni wa anata to yoku nita kono ko ga ite

Ureshikute ureshikute dakedo wakaranai kedo namida ga tomaranakatta
Anata ni wa fukou datta no desu ka?
Anata ni wa meiwaku datta no desu ka?
Dakara atashi no koto sutete nanimo iwazu ni kietan desho?

Kabe ni kakatta hanayome ishou to ano hito wo nikunda juunanasai no haru
Saigo ni mita ushiro sugata ima demo me ni yakitsuitete hanarenai

"Ai suru koto ni tsukareta" tte
Atashi ga donna omoi wo shite anata wo machitsuzuketa ka...wakaru...?

Itami ga mata komiagete
Sakende mitemo nanimo kawarazu anata no kage wo hikizutta mama
Yagate umarete kuru kono ko ni wa tsuai omoi sasetakunai no
Gomen ne. Atashi wa haha toshite yasashiku dakiageru koto sura
Omoide ni naita juunanasai no haru ano hi ni wa nido to kaerenai no ni
Dokoka kokoro no oku no hou de te wo nobashiteru atashi ga ite

Anata ni wa fukou datta no desu ka?
Anata ni wa meiwaku datta no desu ka?
Dakara atashi no koto sutete nanimo iwazu ni kietan desho?
Kabe ni kakatta hanayome ishou wo zutto...
"Anata wa imagoro doko ni imasu ka?"
"Karada wa kowashite imasen ka?"
"Tanoshii seikatsu wo okutte imasu ka?"
"Mou mukashi no anata ja..."
Mada minu kono ko no nakigoe to haru wo matsu...

english:
I decided I had no regrets
A woman alone at Tokyo Station, I'm so tired...
And there's no reason to live

I thought the happy days would continue forever
There's this baby in my belly who looks just like you

I was so happy, so happy, but for some unknown reason, I couldn't stop crying
Does it make you unhappy?
Is it a burden for you?
Is that why you abandoned me and disappeared without a word?

The spring I was seventeen, I hated him and the wedding dress hanging on the wall
The last glimpse I had of you as you walked away is burnt into my retinas and won't leave me

"I'm tired of loving you," you said, and left without another word
Do you know...how I felt waiting for you all that time...?

The pain wells up again
Though I scream, nothing changes and I'm still dragging your shadow along
I don't want to make things hard for this baby who will eventually be born
I'm sorry. I can't even hold you tenderly as a mother should
The spring I was seventeen, I cried over my memories, though I know I can never return to those days again
Somewhere deep in my heart, I reach out my hand

Does it make you unhappy?
Is it a burden for you?
Is that why you abandoned me and disappeared without a word?
The wedding dress hanging on the wall...
"Where are you now?"
"Are you doing well?"
"Has your life been happy?"
"You're not how you used to be..."
With the wailing of this baby I haven't seen yet, I wait for spring...

2009-01-21T12:42:00.001+08:00

everyone thinks this breakup is my fault.. blame me for not giving u.. blame me for not satisfying ur needs... Y?

2009-01-21T12:31:00.005+08:00

some irritating fux-er use my name post al my lao po blog saying she sux... n don eben know how act as me go act.. so damn childish.. n if u haben to know this ip add(218.186.12.221)sux-er do tell me... n this (203.124.2.27 n 203.124.2.18 ) kip spam lao po.. worst.. she call herself bitch.. wad a joker

2009-01-20T14:12:00.002+08:00

haiz baby i rilli regreted for loving u so much... n now.. i will make u regret giving me up... i hate maple i hate audi.. i hate dota... distraction...!!!! friend stealer!! who invented all this stupid games sio!!! so irritating!!! where were freinds when they say i will be there when u nid me most..???
gaming!!!
urgh!!!!
wad eva...
i don gif a damn ler okay!!!

2009-01-16T12:22:00.002+08:00

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2009-01-14T11:01:00.002+08:00

baby.. when will u b back to pick me up at this lonely n cold place... when u left u nvr look back...will come back baby? the problem is will u turn back... every anivesary i celebrate it alone... when will there be a chance for us to celebrate it together?? haiz i dunno lah... but baby ill continue waiting for u.. i love u baby...

2009-01-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 8 MTHS ANIVERSARY BABY!!

2009-01-06T10:53:00.001+08:00

6 more days to our 8 mth ani.. and im counting down... hope u will reply all my msg soon.... i l u ... dearie.. mwarkz

2009-01-06T10:49:00.001+08:00

so wad i love ke more thn u tat doesnt gif u the reason to visit the brothel rite dearie???

2009-01-05T11:38:00.001+08:00

ytd work.. 11-5 thn mit tam for dinner... thn go andersen's ice cream for desert. thn after tat wok wok round.. blast gazette song... thn home.. boring day boring life.. widout u... dearie... life is rilli boring...

2009-01-02T16:58:00.001+08:00

wanna know wad i did in japan?? nah heres the link.
http://hokkaido-trip.blogspot.com/
yupyup!

2008-12-29T17:18:00.002+08:00

mirical happen n im alive... gulp down one whole box of panadol... n im still alrite... nth happen to me... n i feel abit high... WOW... panadols are mirical pill sio.... hey hey.. do try them lur... still feeling sad.. waiting for tammy to come back.. juz tok to yy(my class the larh) he suggested i call police... coz matters are getting out of hands.. well dearie... uthink i bear to let u go inside??? thjink twice... u knew i dont wan n i wont.. so ur dearing me... let me tell u... u won haf the chance... coz if one day i go berserk.. TATS IT IN U GO... u know like monopoly.. go to jail... yupyup... understand C.I.P???

2008-12-27T20:38:00.002+08:00

today... received 3 msges randomly frm dearie...
1st msg :
leave me alone... i hate de meaning of love...my life is gone... i lost alot of things... dun contact me.. i dun believe in love
2nd msg:
no... i don love ya... ya shud know... my love gone le... i don love ya.. leave me alone... iswear i won bother u again...last msg in my life to ya..
3rd msg:
its all a lie... my life is also a lie.. i hate ya n myself... so leave me alone k...

dearie was fierce.. i was so scared.. i cried.. n nearly cut-ted my veins... but i promise kor le no cutting... tried many ways.. wanna die without pain... but i dont find a way... sadd-en... haiz... will try gulping panadol to slp ltr... hope i can die widout pain.. theres definetly a way... n dearie.. pray hard that i won haunt you...dearie.. u know tat doesnt stop me frm waiting for you.. i waited so long till i got u.. n i will continue waiting... okay??? i rilli love u loads.. ill leave u alone now to think thru wad u rilli wan as i don wanna agonise you... you will forever be the one i love till the day i die.. dearest... its tym to say good bye... i don wan u to leave life in agony.. so my death is the best way now... u take kaire of urself n ill wait for u at the the tomb... n i hope i die tonite lah..
bye everyone...

2008-12-26T14:45:00.002+08:00

today got a super heated argument with kor n we nearly disown each other... is like kor... i don wan u to get into trouble wif those low class people... they r illegal... u know wad i mean... well... kor... im sorry for making u angry.. but im doing all this for your own good.. i zao tagging juz to hlp u find wad u wan... m like doing so much thing juz to hlp u hoping u won find those ppl... yet.. i got a scolding from u... haiz.. yah i know im hopeless.. if i got hope i won be waitin for someone who visited the brothel... haiz.. i know im stupid... haiz... but i rilli love him alot n hope kor can gif us ur blessings... mummy dont seems to like dearie... haiz..coz mummy know wad happen ler... haiz... dearie.. i will wait for u no matter wad.. n i hope u prove to mummy u will change n stop visiting tat kinda place... plz.. i beg u..

2008-12-15T16:39:00.002+08:00

hey ppl.. i wun be blogging for sometime.. i nida cool down.. sorry bloggy i have to pang seh u.. dearie visited the duty girls.. it hurt alot it rilli do...

2008-12-13T15:00:00.000+08:00

mit him today.. tok to him frm 12am to 4 am.. wao... ❤❤❤❤ lol...
miss u kays.. mwarks.. i enjoy myself today... n hope u did... i love you... >.<

2008-12-12T15:19:00.002+08:00

mit tam.. out with kor n his brothers... mummy n daddy.. fun... lol.. but poor kor kip kena ps by brothers... HAIZ... POOR KOR...

2008-12-10T10:26:00.003+08:00

wow wow.. reach home today at 2 am.. whoo hoo.. woke up at 9 sms kor... n yah.. woke up by that stupid shawn... ask me about maple.. lol... damn lame... then on my computer... email-ed Doushi.. n im beging to miss japan especially chitose high sku... well.. Doushi if ur coming to singapore.. do tell me.. okay??? haha.. peeps i got to go.. byebye...

2008-12-08T19:38:00.003+08:00

today go chitose high sku.. made a friend.. DOUSHI his super cute kays.. >.<

2008-12-06T17:19:00.003+08:00

hihi everyone... curently at host house blogging... 3 days more n i'll be back home... will up load pictures soon... ok.. got to go... bye people... n colin kor dun sad sad lerhx kayz?? smilez...

2008-12-02T17:10:00.002+08:00

going jap soon.. take kaire everyone.. will blogg when come back frm there...

2008-12-02T12:11:00.001+08:00

leaving today ler will he turn up at the air port??? nope.. i dont think so.. T.T
tkz colin kor kor... he anwei mie ytd... so sweet.. his the sweetest n bestest kor i ever hab... korkor.. u osho dun sad sad lerhkays?? meimei sayang you... >.<

2008-12-01T15:01:00.004+08:00

hihi.. im back.. sat work ****ing tired can... stand for like 11 hrs for like the ****ing 55 bucks... damn ****ing liller can... but during work kp thinking of cip sia.. mie ****ing bodoh rite?? y think of a guy who oredi forgotten about mie...? tell u y.. becoz.. I ❤ HIM.. bodoh... his a super nice guy n he dotes on mie rilli alot lor... but is use to lah... haiz.. becoz of my ****ing stupid mistake lor.. he left me... n that ****ing stella hai de lor... now i rilli hate her lor... act i still ❤ ken der.. but i know nomatter wad i do he wun return ler... so i rather gib up n 默默的支持him lor... like tat jiu gao liao... haiz.. i lost both guys i ❤ due to my consequnces fault.. rilli hope i can turn bck time... so all this wun happen.... ppl ask if cip n ken who wud i choose.. of coz ill choose ken... his a super体贴bf lor.. but i know its impossible larh.. haiz.. now.. ill wait for cip... i promise if he return to my side.. i treat him super well... i wun commit the same ****ing wrong mistake again... i promse...
tml leaving singapore ler.. going japan.. will i enjoy this trip???

2008-11-28T12:47:00.004+08:00

YEAH... IGNATIUS ANSWER-ED MY COR.. WHICH MEANS THERE IS HOPE... but... he say bz leh n he hanged.... T.T... start working tml... hope can c him turn up at my work place... or even gib me a cor... esther christmas wish... ignatius be back by my side... esther bdae wish... ignatius be back by my side.. i do rmb our aniversery... 1205 the day we first met.. do u boi??? i miss u much.. to show my sincerity... esther going stay single... not temporary.. but permenant.. till esther can rilli forget u.. but i DONTthink she can... ❤❤❤you.. miss u..

2008-11-27T17:44:00.003+08:00

to ben:
i ve learnt my lesson... wad i heard is true.. at first i dun blif but now i do... i love the is ignatius... n ur rilli not woth my time.. i treat u good u took it for granted asked me do impossible stuff... i tried my best.. in the end.. u bo ling qing... still heck kaire me... ive tried to love u as much as ignatius.. but now i know i rilli cant.. so plz... **** off...

to ignatius:
im staying in sg for ur sake... i decided to gif up my dreams n wait for u... thou i fall for jimmy b4.. tats juxz puppy love.. u ve showed me wads cor true love... n i do rilli love u.. i leaving for japan soon.. but i do hope tat b4 leaving i can see u...your the one i celebrate my love for your the one i gave my life up foy your the one that i begin to love myself your the one tat makes me wanna protect wad i love which is u... will u come back to me??? for one last tym... i beg u...

2008-11-25T09:03:00.002+08:00

ben promised to cor ytd but he didnt.. make me wait the whole night for his cor.. c lah now i become panda ler lah... wtf... haiz forget it.. seems like.. 他对我的好is short term de lor... haiz... he cheated my feelings again... tat tym is the 50$ one rmb ppl???? stm... well looks like im leaving is confirmed the liao lor... haiz...

long term or short term??

2008-11-24T19:09:00.004+08:00

today wake up... on9 awhile tok to kelvin... thn say he wanna mit... so he cabb-ed down to mai hse here... n knn... wad the **** my shoulder kena scratch by ghost.... nb.. pain sio... thn after tat went met tam... got guys wanna jio her AGAIN!!! wtf... nvm... pei her go swing swing... thn go mos she eat her unagi burger... thn i eat my prata sausage... yumyum... nice worhx... after tat quee damn ****ing long for 2 pieces of durian pan cake... wtf... ok nvm... ytd ben called.. mirical occur... i gl wif him he not angry worhx... strange... he asked me m i willing to change for him.. i told him off say if he rilli love me he wun wan mie to change n he diam diam.. he ask m i serious abt leaving sg.. i said i m unless someone willing to make me stay lah... he know n seems willing to make me stay... deep in my heart i felt a liller happiness... but i m still thinking... is he worth it... he change... he became nicer n more te tye... but isit part tym or full tym???? i rilli donno... i hope this change will be full time... wed mayb mitting him.. n ill get to know if im rilli leaving oredi... well hope to stay but nth worth me staying... for now i mean... n he asked do i still want this rls.. i rilli wanted it but... ur temper i rilli cant stand it.. ppl ppl care for u u say ppl prob into ur business... haiz... i rilli dunno lah... i hope u n me will appreciate each other... i appreciate wad u did for me but did you??? haiz... i rilli dunno